i used to be able to write freely, but i have told myself time and again that writing doesn't work anymore. from today onwards, i am not going to think. i will just let my hands do the thinking and write whatever i feel like writing, regardless of its coherence. i know it helps. i've just been lying to myself.

these days, so many things have been happening. undeniably, it has been very overwhelming. it feels like i am losing myself. i have always built a strong barrier within so that i do not let people enter too easily. however, this time round, it was all too fast and furious. i was too involved emotionally, people entered easily and i expected alot. and of course, without a surprise, it all crashed.

now i am feeling so pissed off with myself for breaking this promise to myself. but i guess, there is always something to be learnt.

so -

1) NO EMOTIONS.
2) DONT GIVE A FUCK ABOUT ANYTHING.
3) NO EXPECTATIONS
4) DON'T CARE AT ALL.

Till then.