it feels very unsettling to be in places among people you do not want to be with, but due to context and circumstances, you just have to stick to them. so most of the time, i will keep quiet or attempt to join in the conversation but while doing so i think it is apparent i really don't give a damn about these people and the words which are wafting through their lips. it is such a bad PR move and it makes me seem very apathetic and disengaged but sincerely/truthfully/from the bottom of my heart, i do not want to talk to you.

it feels like you are fake and disgusting and i do not want to be associated with you anyway. this is the reason why i cannot wait to get out of here and leave this place. i just want to leave you all.