and today's the day when you're triggered by that something. 


And i define that something as something that eats up your soul, that very feeling of paranoia and anxiety. That something which causes you to do stuffs you tell yourself a million times not to, but you still did it anyway. That something that you swear not to think of again, but when triggered, it shines ever so brightly at the back of your mind, ripping off every single hope you hold firmly to.

Why? Because it's a fucking syndrome that controls every part of you till you're just dead but alive at the same time.

That something ate me up.