seems like this is all too familiar; that nagging sense for comfort and dependency, till it slowly kills a part of me. i hate feeling this way, feeling all needy and wanting assurance from someone i barely know. i am stronger than this, i've been through this before. i'm not a weakling, no i am not. i can do better. i've always controlled the situations to my advantage. but, what if, the situation is much more complicated than this? what if, now, i am getting weaker?

i've never liked being around needy people, so i mentally tell myself to be strong and independent and not be needy at all. but it's hard not to be when i'm in love. i hate how vulnerable i can be with people i love, it's as though i have no self-control to be myself.

i guess at the end of the day, i just don't want to get hurt. as a result, due to my immense fear of getting hurt, i run away. i choose to go for the easy route and run away. but i can't keep doing that. to be happy, i have to get hurt somehow. i have to take risk and step out of my comfort zone.

i will fight for you. but, i really hope that it will all work out. i know you're worth it, but please prove that to me.