dont know how to feel happy it's like do we consciously erase all feelings of sadness and negativity, or do we just not feel at all and live life according to what we THINK it is instead of what we FEEL because feeling happy is an illusion it is an effort instead to think of happy thoughts to be happy

i would like to live in a life without any expectations sometimes, so that i will never, ever be disappointed. expecting something reeks of disappointment in its true essence because when you expect something, you are hoping for a result which aligns to your expectations. and more often than not, you'll fall short of those expectations. you'll end up feeling disappointed, dejected and lost. so can we just not expect and DO things freely without thinking of the risks/consequences because the very aftermath can thwart us from being better because we are so caught up in achieving the best form of result possible (and of course, it can push us further. afterall, there are 2 sides to a coin)