i annoy myself to no end

feels like i am constantly wanting 'something' all the time, but i am not working as hard as the extent of my want. they are all thoughts that are always seemingly throbbing my brain but i don't have the drive/motivation/control to rule them and do some actions. those are just thoughts without any action

also, it annoys me how i am so not motivated to do the best in whatever i do

and how i get brored of people and things really fast

sigh i am so useless i hope this is not some negative self-fulfilling prophecy