i'm very annoyed. i know God is fair, and everything happens for a reason. but it annoys the hell out of me when i know, I KNOW, that for a fact, right after everything is smooth and awesome, things will DEFINITELY turn for the worst soon enough. most of the time, it comes as something very expected, and i just knew it was waiting to spring up on me. GRR.

and with regards to the whole boyfriend issue, i think i'm just unlucky in that sense. tell me something new i don't already know. i'm so suay generally, and i need a flower bath ASAP. but anyway, it's always the case of me liking some trophies who won't reciprocate my feelings, or the other way round, whereby i won't reciprocate some guys who have feelings for me because they're just not my type.

or maybe, i've not fully accepted who i really am, to allow someone in.