last night, i dreamt of 2 guys. they look similar, but vaguely different. it was still fresh on my mind when i woke up, but now, the memories are faint and dim. i remember i was together with one of them, and somehow, we broke up and i got together with the other one. yet, i was still clinging on to the first one and i couldn't let go. i see A's face in B's and it was very suffocating. it was hard to express how i felt, my lips were tied and the words always seemed so heavy.

despite everything that has happened, we're all still back to square one. this sucks