yesterday, without any apparent trigger(maybe it was my hair, or like a heightened awareness of my flaws and imperfections), i felt this immense sense of paranoia. and fatigue. how long more can i do this? all these facades, to be something i'm not. i'm tired of it. but, this is life. this is how we are going to survive.

so, i thank God for my awesome bestfriend whom i know i can be myself with, and she still won't judge. she would love me all the same. it is so easy to be around her. yesterday, we just laughed and made a fool of ourselves. these are what we do best. but i wasn't even trying. i didn't even have to try. i was just myself. i was tired, i was shagged, i was boring. but i didn't make any conscious effort to liven up the spirit. i was just absorbed in my own waves, but because our frequencies are amazingly similar, it was still fun. we were still ourselves. we weren't someone else.

best friends forever <3