am chatting to an old flame via msn right now, and i really really really miss him though it's just not possible for us to be together. i still recall the times we spent in each other's arms; we were so carefree and jubilant and i've always thought of him as the perfect guy. but i guess we can't always get what we want, and ideals are never attainable in reality anyway

and it just so happened that i was over at I's place last night. coincidentally, we were talking about how we really enjoy each other's company but we just can't be together. yknow like how some things are just not meant to be, be it due to circumstances or whatever. it's pretty sad, yeah, and there's really no point trying so hard for things that you know aren't for yours to keep. it's better letting it go than fighting for something which is never yours in the first place, but still keeping it tight under your rein because it just 'feels right' to do so. move on <3

well, i have new dates now and it seems as though i am still holding a wall within, but i'm sure it's for my own good. if he loves me enough, he will break it and i will welcome him with open arms