these days, i have been immersing myself deeply in thoughts and i thought how awesome it would be if i can just pen them/type them down instantly. it's like a chore to get back home and recollect all of these just to blog about it, it's almost tiring and i don't have much energy

everything seems far and distant even though they are just a few days away. looks like i have mastered the ability to be apathetic, slowly being indifferent to everything around me. these memories flutter away like the wind, and i just don't have the courage to bring them back to bask myself in such indulgences, because doing so would require me to switch to that particular persona, and i'm tired to transform every single time

peter asked me yesterday what would make me really happy. i didn't give much thought about it(probably because i have given TOO much thought into it), these words were instant and they just came out naturally.

''i would be really happy if there's no one else in this world, or rather, there would be no one that i know. in a foreign land, maybe? i just don't want to see any semblance of humanity, because i don't want to be judged AT ALL."