i had a good day today. an awesome workout followed by a 4-hour karaoke session and dinner afterwards. i asked Z if i was his good friend and he replied, "if you dont think i'm your good friend, i'll go jump down now". (yes he is that dramatic)

but that's what i love about my friends. the connection we share are mutual, and it's always so real. i love the word real. i think so much fakery and pretense are circulating on the minds of millions, and to find something 'real' is an amazing gift. i've always doubted the meaning behind it, but i guess time will tell(i believe time is a very obvious love language). and time has definitely shown that i'm indeed blessed with really good friends. am really, really grateful for that.

i was telling Z about how time is slipping by our hands without any mercy, age is catching up and i feel so old. with this, i feel that i shouldn't be wasting my time on 'people that are not worth it'. i said i'm tired of all these useless entanglements. i want to unravel myself from this complicated webs and stay close to those that really matter. feel like time is running out. these days, i choose who i want to hang out with(re : people that matter). and i really don't try to keep in contact with those whom i deem as 'unworthy'( re : short term/moment friends). but Z said that it's not fair this way. i wanted to laugh out and scream BUT LIFE IS NEVER FAIR ANYWAY. i guess it's okay to be selfish sometimes, well, especially if it makes you free