whenever i hang out with these [guys], subconciously, i would tell myself that i can do so much better than this. i have choices, this free will that i can exploit to my advantage. but, i don't use them because i am so suppressed with my insecurities, till i'm willing to settle for something so much lesser than what i could actually have gotten. and, now, it sounds stupid and silly. it's not that i'm incapable, i just refuse to venture out and try.

tell me something new i don't already know.

and these days, i've been paying very close attention to the nuances of the English language. i've been trying to hone my inferential skills because i realised that most of the time, whatever that is released/promulgated/advertised/said by a [party] does not exactly mean as what it came across. there's actually a hidden agenda, if you actually bothered to be more observant