i have this urge to write about what i did today, it's like there's this gnawing itch to puke everything out about how i really feel. it feels quite extreme

though it's an irony because i can't exactly splurge out on the details but just the brief superficial aspect of it

i went out with X today, and X is a very very close friend whom i love very much. we're so open and comfortable with each other. the feeling is very mutual. but it's platonic, duh. we would talk about sex most of the time, because she is very sexually active and promiscuous but i don't judge her; i love her very much nonetheless. when we hang out, we would plan to shop but this would always fail because we would end up talking about everything. (and it's so easy to talk to her because our personalities really click)

we had some HTHT conversation just now and it really dawned upon me about how there's so much in her that i've yet to discover. and i love this type of friendships. it takes time to slowly unravel what's buried within, which of course, needs to be set on the premise of trust and loyalty. this makes it real, and not some 'moment' type of friends. i've finally understood why she does certain things, which in general, made me realise how interesting humans are. there's only so much we show, but there's so much more deep inside. everyone puts on facades, we carry on living life strong and determined, but who is to know what is actually within? every day, they internalise this baggage, which then made them respond/react/act in that particular manner. people would judge, but when we finally understood the real meaning behind it, it is a whole new story altogether.

this is so interesting, i feel like taking up psychology or something :(